only time

Only time can heal the hurt that I feel. I have ignored it for so long. Not seeing you, not hearing from you, it was easy to forget all of the time we spent together, all the memories we share. But then one second, one split second of catching your eye from across the room at a crowded party and it all comes rushing back. The beginning, the middle, the bitter end. It's impossible to forget. And I realize how much I loved you, how much I still love you and how much I miss you. But even with all of the pain of questionings my decisions, I know that it will never be the same. There is no way that we could go back to the way we were. But maybe that's why it hurts so much. Because I know the love that we shared and how I will never have that again, not with you. You shaped me so much, you turned me into the person I am today and for that I will never be able to thank you enough. So thank you S. Thank you for loving me the way you did. Thank you for hurting me the way you did. But most importantly thank you for making this the hardest thing i've ever done.